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Lesson Learned: Massive Burnout In Learning Web Development

Ayu Adiati
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Originally published at adiati.com ใƒป5 min read

Hello Fellow Codenewbies ๐Ÿ‘‹,

You read an article or a Tweet on how someone becomes successful. That person's journey then becomes a motivation for you.

If they can do it, I can do it too!

Nothing wrong with that. In fact, it's a good thing. Motivation is one of the factors that keep us going.

But one thing that we often forget, most of those successful stories also come with struggles.
And we tend to focus on the after stories and not the struggles.

Some people avoid sharing their struggles and they have their own reason to do that.
But we all know that there is no rainbow without rain. There is no going up without being at the bottom at one point.

This post would be different than my other posts. I honestly hesitated to write, let alone publish, this article. But I decided, I will share my recent experience as a self-note and reminder for myself. Also, as a lesson for you to acknowledge when to take some breaks.

Massive burnout

I've been through a massive burnout not long ago.
I'm saying massive because it almost made me want to quit my learning journey.
Does it surprise you? Well, it did surprise me for sure.
All those years that I put into learning could've been gone in one day. Just like that.

I've experienced burnouts before. But with some days of break (or procrastination), I usually will start fresh.
This time it was different. Taking a break didn't make me feel better.
It started with me having hard times understanding some concepts. Then I forgot many things; things that I've learned and done quite a lot before.
I had imposter syndrome, a panic attack, and got so frustrated that lead me to think of quitting.

What caused the massive burnout?

It was a smooth start for me at beginning of framework learning. So I forgot completely that this journey is a marathon, not a sprint. I was rushing things. I wanted to add more and more to learn until I got stuck in one point.

I noticed that I started to get frustrated. But instead of taking a proper break, I pushed through because I didn't want to lose the momentum. I asked questions, I even got some mentoring from some friends. I got some light after the mentoring sessions, but the next day, I got confused again. And I was too embarrassed in asking for more help, especially because I wanted to ask for help on the same topic.

At the same time, many people that I know got a new job.
I'm super happy for them, but I also felt that I'm still far way behind. And that was also one of the reasons I wanted to rush things.

Bottom line:

  • Rushing myself in learning things.
  • Ignoring the signs of burnout.
  • Not taking a proper break.
  • Not sharing my struggles.
  • Comparing myself to other people.

those are the things that lead me to massive burnout.

How to survive a massive burnout?

This would be different for each person, but here what I did:

1. Read the signs and take a step back

I did notice the sign of frustration, but I kept pushing through because I didn't want to lose the momentum.
Instead of being in the momentum, it pushed me away even further.

When you read the sign of frustration or burnout, take a step back. You won't lose your momentum. You're recharging yourself to go further with more energy. Whatever you do, it won't go anywhere, waiting for you to come back.

Though it was a bit late, I finally took a step back and took a break.

2. Take a break

What I emphasize here is not to feel guilty when you decided to take a break. Let your mind off from your learning, your work, and be present. Have fun!

My mistake was, when I took a break, I felt so guilty for having a day or more off from learning. I did things that suppose to make me feel better, but my mind kept telling me, "Why can't I understand it? Why am I doing this while I should learn and try harder?"

I got much better after took one week off from learning without feeling guilty at all.

Taking a real break from whatever you do is essential for your mental health.

3. Share the struggle

I finally shared my struggle with some friends. To my surprise, I wasn't the only one who got frustrated in not understanding what I'm learning.
After doing that, I felt the big burden lifted from my shoulders and I got my motivation back.

Struggling is not a sign of weakness or being defeated. It's one of the learning processes that many people are experiencing as well at one point in their journey.

Don't feel embarrassed. Do share your struggles.
People around you could give support only if you tell them what's going on. And a bonus to that, you could get back your motivation.

4. Change the mindset

After I shared my struggles, one of my friends told me this.

Change your mindset from learning or doing to experimenting.

When you learn something and you don't get it, you could get frustrated and stressed. Or when you do a project, and you get stuck, you could encounter the imposter syndrome.
But with the mindset of experimenting, what you need to do is to try until you understand. Until whatever you do works.

No scientist knows in the beginning how to produce a vaccine for a new virus.
They do research, many experiments, and tests until they find one.

The mindset of experimenting develops a sense of curiosity rather than failing.

I like this mindset. I started to apply this recently and it makes me feel everything is all right, even on my bad day!

5. Compare to no one and celebrate more

Gentle reminder: Everyone's journey is different and unique.
I can't compare myself to someone who's able to put more time into learning than mine.
I better not compare myself to someone who can understand things faster than me.
The only thing I can compare is where I am now and where I was before.

Looking back and see where I was 2.5 years ago and now where I understand much more things than a single line of HTML is huge. And I completely forget that!

And now, instead of beating myself up for "being slow", I'm learning from my friends who got the jobs. I asked how they got there, and what do we need to get there. Experiences are the best teacher. Not only ours but also other people's. And I'm very lucky to have friends who share their experiences so I can learn from them.

You (and I) should celebrate more. Celebrate our accomplishments, doesn't matter how small it is!
Last time, I bought myself a cute pen for being able to render a component without looking back at the tutorial. Sounds silly? Well, it was a small win after all!

Final Words

I could encounter another burnout in the future. If that time comes, I will look back at this post, and remind me that I was there before and I survived.

I hope this could help you as well if you're in the same situation as I did ๐Ÿ˜Š


Thank you for reading!
Last but not least, you can find me on Twitter. Let's connect! ๐Ÿ˜Š

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Matt C • Edited

I remind myself that Education is not a race to finish first.
It is only a race against myself to learn what I can do well.

For me, the paradox of Education is that you learn the extent of your knowledge.
Q. What am I good at doing?
Q. What areas do I need help in?

Education is not learning everything, that's impossible. Carpenters don't learn to build every imaginable home. They learn how to use their tools well. Carpenters do not build skyscrapers. They know what the limits of building with wood are.

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Anita Beauchamp

Yes, knowing our limits is what ultimately allows us to be useful without grinding ourselves down. If we had to know everything, we could never rest and we'd always have to learn at a lightning-fast speed as technology changes quickly. If we know our tools and the limits of those tools, we can accept the work that we're capable of and let the rest pass us.

Excellent point Matt!

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Ayu Adiati Author

Agree with you, Matt!
Especially in it's impossible to learn everything!

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Ella Ang (she/her/elle)

Thanks so much for sharing this, @adiatiayu - so much honesty and truth.

I really love the note to your future self:

I could encounter another burnout in the future. If that time comes, I will look back at this post, and remind me that I was there before and I survived.

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Matt C

Ayu & Ella,

so much honesty and truth - Ayu

HEAR, Hear.
If I didn't say it before, I'll say it now.
Thank you for sharing and starting this thread/discussion.

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Ayu Adiati Author

Thank you for reading and giving such great tips, Matt!

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Ayu Adiati Author

Thank you so much for reading, @ellativity ๐Ÿ˜Š

Yes, I really need to remind my future self ๐Ÿ˜„

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Anita Beauchamp

This is an important article. It gave me the nudge that I needed to slow down as I've been feeling a bit stressed and discouraged myself. You give really great tips on combatting it, and I will be putting these into practice.

Your post has inspired me to share some of my struggles in a post of my own. Thank you!

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Ayu Adiati Author

Thank you for reading, and I'm glad if it helped you in some way, Anita! ๐Ÿ˜€

I hope you would get much better after slowing down, and looking forward to read your post! ๐Ÿ˜„

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Dexter

This is a good read. Thank you for sharing. I also experienced this before, and my personal solution is to exercise. I had this itchy feeling that it will wake up the brains in my muscles to process the learning contents faster. Just a metaphor. Good luck to us newbies!

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Ayu Adiati Author

Thank you for reading, @blitzdex27 ! ๐Ÿ˜€
Excercise is one great solutions as well!
Glad that you've overcome it ๐Ÿ˜Š

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kawazack • Edited

"Why can't I understand it? Why am I doing this while I should learn and try harder?"

Thanks for this honest pain sharing. I felt that sometimes! :P

"The only thing I can compare is where I am now and where I was before" This is the waaaaay, yaaaay!

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Ayu Adiati Author

Thank you for reading and welcome to CodeNewbie! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

There are many ways to do networking and be in a community.
CodeNewbie is defenitely one of them!
If you find anyone who has same interest as you (language, skill, etc.), you can follow them and send them private message.
I'm not quite sure if only you who need to follow them, or they have to follow you back for you to be able to send message. But you can always drop comment and ask if they're into some discussions.

If you're on Twitter, you can follow tech ppl and see how it goes from there. That's how I found my communities ๐Ÿ˜Š

I've wrote a blogpost about how I found my communities here. Hopefully it helps ๐Ÿ˜„

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Ayu Adiati Author

Thank you for reading ๐Ÿ˜„
I really do hope that you're doing much better now, @jasonbraganza !

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Ben Halpern

Great read

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Ayu Adiati Author

Thank you and also for reading, @ben ๐Ÿ˜Š

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Nic

I keep thinking I've learnt this lesson and then end up needing to learn it again. So this was a good reminder.

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Ayu Adiati Author

Thanks, Nic!
It happens to me too! That's why I wrote this post one of the reasons is as self-reminder ๐Ÿ˜„